Yesterday, in a moment of weakness, I arranged an assignation with another.
I know it’s wrong. I know it’s disloyal. I know that I should have resisted temptation. But I’m only human and I have needs. Needs that, for one reason or another, are not being met. Needs that I have tried to suppress. Needs that I have tried to meet myself, only to find the experience a pale imitation of the real thing. So yesterday, in a moment of weakness, I succumbed to temptation and reached for my phone.
I’ve been aware of him for some time. Had we met earlier, I feel that we could have been good together, but why would I risk a fine relationship on the off chance of something better?
Recently though, running and work have made things difficult, and I have found myself thinking about him more and more. It crept up so gradually. A missed opportunity here, a rain check there and before you know it, the cracks start to appear. Should I have been more patient, tried harder to make it work? Should I have skipped the odd run to make time for us? At the time, I thought not, I thought what we had was indestructible.
But that was before I made the call. Before I arranged the meeting. I’m now wracked with guilt and worry. If the assignation goes well, will I be able to resist straying again in the future? If it disappoints, will I have jeopardised a good, nay great, thing for nothing?
Or will my sports massage therapist understand why, in the face of seemingly insurmountable diary clashes, I have made an appointment with another?
Well… as you said… you have kneads
That was an awful pun – your father would be proud 😉
of course she will! haha, brilliant NMOAR.. just got the shopping list for Housedean Farm, hope you guys are going to be hungry when you get there 🙂
They’ll never find out…
I know. I mean, how would they?
Ha ha. Brilliant writing. Let’s hope your story has a “happy ending”. *cough*
Oh you are cheeky, this had me on the edge of my seat!
Personally I broke out into a cold sweat reading it, while Louise just sat there and giggled 😦
🙂